for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

2007-06-30T06:59:00.000-07:00

moved(:

I'm running after You♥

2007-05-16T22:10:00.000-07:00

TOMORROW'S PRAYER MEETING.
I BETTER GO SLEEP EARLY TODAY BEFORE I ZONK OUT TOMORROW WHILE PRAYING(:
GOODNIGHT WORLD :D

I won't turn back & go their way,
'cause I'm running after You

ps. it took me awhile to realise blogger is finally working again, but anw, I have made another blog on XANGA(:

2007-05-14T12:45:00.000-07:00

(click on image for enlarged version) :D

2007-05-11T23:05:00.000-07:00

BLOGGER IS ALWAYS SO SCREWED, I FEEL LIKE CHANGING TO XANGA.
BUT THEN AGAIN, XANGA IS NOT USER FRIENDLY (WELL TO ME AT LEAST)

I havent got any clue what's wrong with me. Maybe cause the Mid-years have hardened my heart or something, but I have been feeling quite numb and awkward recently, towards certain events, like as if my mind knows how to reject negative feelings but accept the positive ones. the way my mind works is WEIRD. I told you the mid-yrs have cause some side-effects, undesirable ones in fact.

Wahlau I'm like trying not to read my inbox now. Sometimes it just scares me :/ ):

Life kinda sucks sometimes, but you just gotta learn to rely on God(:

2007-05-11T17:40:00.000-07:00

in the confusion and the aftermath,
you are my signal fire

whee, spiderman with kim is love(:
LOVE THE BLACK♥
was sad when harry osborne died in the end, but I dint cry, although the person next to me did(: you know who you are :DD
SO UNEXPECTED MANN! HAHAHAH(:
met cm and melody and cineleisure.
went everywhere, we talked for a little, and both of them ended up following us.
went to kinoukuniya, where kim and I went to the stationery section, cm and mel went all over the place.
after kinoukuniya, went to city link mall, and I showed everyone how bad my sense of direction was :/ ): aiya, but in the end cm and melody left after we entered Prints.
oh wells, then we went to celebrate janel's birthday at sakae.
YENNY was oh-so-late, and made me so hungry that I could eat a whole cow <-- not lame cow lah! :/ headed to sakae, then lame cow was so freaking lame as usual, and kept waving at me. so I wanted to do something stupid, and kept turning back when he waved at me, like as if there was someone behind me when there was none. I KNOW YOU WERE WAVING AT ME OK! (: haha.
then took pics, but they are with kim(: quite dumb actually, cause lame cowzilla wanted to cam-whore, but he couldnt find the shutter -.-
so in the end, he acted like an expert photographer, and took all the dumb photos, &he managed to catch janel in her unglam moment, hilarious mannnnnnn
HEADED HOME, rich kids lxq and yenny cabbing, and rachelyong+kim+hannah - the not-so-rich kids public bus-sing(:

2007-05-07T21:45:00.000-07:00

MID-YRS ARE OVER! :D

Jesus, because of You, I'M FREE!(:

very hyper now. haha. and guess what, the verse of the day has my favourite verse (:

whee. AND NOW I CAN SERVE :D (: <3

AND TMR I'LL SEE LAME COW & JANEL FOR ONCE IN A VERY LONG TIME, YAY YAY YAY! (:

HYPERNESS :DD

2007-05-05T12:35:00.000-07:00

haha blogger's screwed man):

anw, yesterday night was talking to kim (the one in 3e3! what were you thinking..) over the phone. was feeling feverish and all, and was telling her my pathetic plans for 7th may, last day of papers. I NEED MY SLEEP, seriously. and then after that this morning I woke up and felt like it was HELL, maybe even worse. I kept going upstairs and downstairs, trying to regain the warmth in my body. BUT it didnt work. was feeling cold and feverish. sucked big time man, so my mum told me to pop panadols. then I drank water, and BURPED. THEN there was this weird gurgle in my stomach, I wanted to VOMIT.

then prepared Ice-cold water to cool my body down. WAS GONNA DIE MAN. woke up at 10 feeling tons better, thank God(: went to the doc, and she said I dint have a fever -.- aiya but maybe thats cause I ate panadols :D

just hope my stupid body would be well enough on 7th may for emath and chinese paper. the rest of the papers sucked and rocked in their own ways, but I guess the biggest problem is the time constraint. I keep finding myself rushing through the last few questions :\ but hey, chem was good lah, considering I dint study properly the day before (: whee.

oh and sorry to lame cow, janel, kim & eunice. Shouldnt have been down with the fever bug ):

2007-04-27T18:30:00.000-07:00

CAIMIAO IS THE CRAZIEST GAY AND THE STUPIDEST ROCK.

BUT MAN, SHE'S LOVE! ♥

(she wanted me to say that, that crazy gay)

2007-04-22T22:20:00.000-07:00

say hi to christian(:
ETHAN!
ethan and jonathan :D aww man cute!
they are brothers. no kidding.
yeah, lets check out those molars :D

2007-04-22T00:25:00.000-07:00

Caimiao is like practically begging me to update. (ok lah, "begging" is a little too exaggerated)
haha, today was not really eventful, just studying and studying -.-
oh wells, waiian was asking me whats with the -.- face, and I was like, I dont know ):
Im screwed, and apparantly its not funny caimiao):
Like what melody always says, CaiMiao you suck! :D
Kidding (:

2007-04-17T18:15:00.000-07:00

RAINY DAYS MAKE PEOPLE EMO):
you, you didn't listen.

2007-04-15T18:45:00.000-07:00

Your name is higher, higher.

thank you leejiaxin! :D this is for you-

2007-04-15T18:00:00.000-07:00

If you pay off God's bills, He'll pay off yours.

I have my black mask on right now, and I'm waiting for it to dry so that I can peel it off. &Im not allowed to make any facial expressions, which is so contradictary to my love for drama. My mother says if I make any facial expressions, I'll get wrinkles! Oh no! It'll be terrible if at my age, I get those horrid looking things which women actually spend so much money removing. (Like Mdm Goh, hawhaw.)

Anyway, yesterday was one of the days which I call great! Aww man, one day I wanna be like Benny Hinn, doing great works for God! Wow, I wouldnt mind forsaking my dream to be a pilot for something which is even more worthwhile! Really! :D & my brother is gonna transfer to City Harvest soon. I still havent got my answer yet. Oh wait, I havent even asked yet, how to get answer?

Healing comes when the cross is revealed!

2007-04-13T21:35:00.000-07:00

Today was BORING TO THE MAX. went to boon keng (I finally know where it is) and ate at macs. For the first time I actually felt full eating chocolate sundae. ZOMG jiaxin is like the funniest person ever! she's told me she actually could get lost at dhoby ghaut mrt! D: I was like, "But this mrt is so small! Imagine if you actually went to the expo which is like, so much bigger than this!" One day, I shall bring jiaxin to expo to let her see how BIG it is (: hopefully we wont end up going in circles and circles :D

Anw, speaking of TO THE MAX, I am actually pretty annoyed. People whom Im absoulutely NOT CLOSE to are actually using it. I have a hunch that they only started using it when they heard me using it, and this actually causes me to be mentally unstable and exploded TO-THE-MAX for some reason. So Im sorry if I dont even know you but you use those three words(=

Wanna know how it feels like? It's like you just invented something which can earn you lotsa money. Then I come along and like a pickpocket, I take it from your hands behind your back, and worse still, I submit this piece of invention the the government and declare that Im the inventor. And then poof! It's gone! No longer yours! Get it? Yeah, it's very much something like piracy. So go away all you word pirates! Im very very serious.

Can't stand what I'm saying? Then sit down, loser!

HAHA! Ok the above thing is so funny. Like, I cant believe I'm actually posting that. Oh well, it feels good going back to what I used to do when I was sec1, but of course you're not gonna see that very often, cause it'll be super chilidsh. so I shall be childish for once today, for SOMEONE'S viewing pleasure(:

2007-04-09T22:40:00.000-07:00

Easter this year was really meaningful. It's not all about bunnies hopping around and eggs getting passed around. It's actully to commerate Jesus Christ's death for us on the cross 2000 yrs ago (Good Friday) to wash our sins and give us a pure heart (not Jesus' birthday, Chloe!). Yeah, and the main point is, I backslided, but I slid back to God once again(: yay! :D
So, my little brother performed in some skit for the children easter programme, and I just hung arnd to snap photographs using my laoya cammy phone, so sorry for the blur picts! ):

On-stage, trying to act-emo.Trying to act angry.Trying to act angry again.Act hardworking. Ben Chong, the grown up version of my brother in the skit.
In the process of sitting down, really unglam :/
Reading some "letter", trying to act emo again! -.-
some old photo with jan on the bus, she's such a SPOILER! :)
Hwee's special drink, will perk you up! I love it :DD

me&zhimin, I miss her truckloads! ♥

You laid aside Your majesty,

Gave up everything for me

Suffered at the hands

Of those you have created.

You took all my guilt&shame

When You died and rose again

Now today you reign

In Heaven&earth exalted.

I'm looking forward to Good Friday next year! (:

2007-04-01T18:05:00.000-07:00

HELLO EVERYONE
TIME FOR UPDATING.
SPORTS DAY WAS MORE THAN JUST A FUNFAIR. IT HAS TAUGHT ME HOW THREE/EIGHT CAN BE SO LOVELY(:
THOSE WHO RAN, WERE AWESOME.
THOSE WHO WENT FOR NOVELTY RACE, WERE NOBLE.
THOSE WHO CHEERED LIKE MAD, WERE CHEERFUL.
THOSE WHO SCREAMED YOUR HEAD OFF, WERE LOUD AND CLEAR.
& BECAUSE WE WERE AWESOME, NOBLE, CHEERFUL, LOUD AND CLEAR,
WE WON THE CLASS CHAMPION FOR THE SEC 3 COHORT!
and everyone scream yay for eunice, who won the individual award. she was truly a fire bunny :D I never knew she had that much speed in her :D
ok, I hope the class spirit will still be there, 'cause 3e8 has got the spirit that will make you drop! (:
EVERYONE SCREAM YAY! :D
I LOVE THREE/EIGHT! <3
& we're all in this together (:

2007-03-24T21:45:00.000-07:00

I wanna turn away, I wanna surrender.

but some things are beyond my control; I need the supernatural strength that comes from God.

today, went to BBTC to hear tony anthony talk.
HE IS SO FUNNY, but is life story is pretty sad):
Thank God he got to know who the One is.
I wanna be like him some day, reaching out to everyone :D
teeeheeeeeee(:

2007-03-15T16:55:00.000-07:00

like what's your ~~fproblem~~.

ok whatever, today was just plain tuition tuition and tuition.
amath was challenging.
ahh! i'm so hungry but i dont wanna eat cause the food is plain grossness.
seriously.
ohtian!

2007-03-09T16:35:00.000-08:00

hello everyone, its the last day of school! WOOHOO! :DDD
i'll be cutting my hair during the hols, everyone scream YAY! (:

2007-03-05T22:20:00.000-08:00

TANCHUYI! :D <3

Hey pretty, cheer up ok! (: There's no sense in getting emo over nothing, so why not be happy over something? (: teehee :DDD

Ohgosh, you really look emo in that picture. Someone's gonna cry with you (: WAHAHA.

ok whatever, i'm spouting nonsense again :D you see, this is being posted late at night where my brain juices just cant be squeezed out for some reason.

ok I know this sounds super cliched, CHEER UP! cause we wanna see your pretty smile ((:

2007-03-04T21:25:00.000-08:00

some more! :D

me and yenn, edited.
reflections(:

ahh my internet is lagging BIG time.

2007-03-03T09:55:00.000-08:00

teehee, yesterday was a niceeeeeee day(: JUST FOLLOW LAW was funny. especially how gay gurmit singh was, the ending was, cliched I guess. 'cause hweeting and I kinda expected it. anw, went to play arcade, and DDR, wth I suck big time at it. my sense of rhythm cannot make it lahhh! ): hweeting had to leave so soon lor, like right after the movie, and caimiao kept msging her non-stop after she left. anw, when long john silver to eat dinner, and we talked abt a lot of nonsense there, like maple story and what not. teehee, then shiru went to laoyusheng. so left me caimiao and yenny. wanted to play pool, but then got age limit, so we headed to heeren to bowl. but we couldnt find the bowling area, so yenny called her sis, and her sis said it was closed down alr, WTH! but nvm, we sat and talked nonsense again at LJS in the heeren. then went home.

anw, I shall make the post more interesting with pictures lah ok, otherwise you all will slp reading my boring-to-the-max post. hawhaw.

wahaha.
we're rich! teehee.
yenny and caimiao.
of course! (:
both are love! <3

2007-02-25T19:20:00.000-08:00

This week, so many things have happened that caused me to get upset, especially what someone did. Maybe i'm just a little too sensitive like what yenny said, and furthermore I've yet to confirm stuff with certain people. Still, I have this really bad feeling, like it just comes and strikes me, and I'm really disappointed, 'cause I've put in so much for our friendship, and this is what I get? how ironic ):

ok, this has really taught me a lot, 'cause I could have just depended on God, but I did not. Why didnt I think of relying on Him? Every week I sing praises of how faithful He is, but I dont really rely on Him for comfort, even though I know He is the faithful one. I just ignored Him, put Him on the shelf and wallowed in self-pity, thinking of ways to cheer my other emo friends up. Why didn't I remember that He could bind my broken-heart? Why didn't I exchange my sorrow for His joy? Why dint I rely on my true bestfriend? WHY?

What I know now is that, God will never forsake me no matter what(: and I thank Him for that. This week has taught me that man may not be always faithful, but God is always faithful. I know that if I put in a lot for the relationship between me and God, He'll not let me down(:

woohoo, emo-days are over :D God is back, and He's here to stay :DDD

2007-02-23T14:40:00.000-08:00

I see your true colours shining through.

2007-02-23T00:20:00.000-08:00

i loooooove CHUYI and M-E-L-O-D-Y says:
i finished my obs compo

'chel- can you hear the sound of revival. says:
haha i see

'chel- can you hear the sound of revival. says:
congrats

'chel- can you hear the sound of revival. says:
you win a praize

i loooooove CHUYI and M-E-L-O-D-Y says:
thanks

'chel- can you hear the sound of revival. says:
*prize

i loooooove CHUYI and M-E-L-O-D-Y says:
what prize

'chel- can you hear the sound of revival. says:
a pat on the back

i loooooove CHUYI and M-E-L-O-D-Y says:
yay

'chel- can you hear the sound of revival. says:
dont call me loser for that

'chel- can you hear the sound of revival. says:LOL

i loooooove CHUYI and M-E-L-O-D-Y says:
thats the best prize ever rachel

i loooooove CHUYI and M-E-L-O-D-Y says:
i love you!

'chel- can you hear the sound of revival. says:
teehee, iloveyoutoo!

'chel- can you hear the sound of revival. says:
ahem

YENNY YOU ARE SO CRAPPY.

ok whatever. today was a bad bad day, everyone was feeling emo.
including me.
ahh but nvm, friends are more impt :D
so i shall be strong for them(:

2007-02-19T12:45:00.000-08:00

whee. CNY :DD

FEMMEEE DAY! (:

2007-02-19T00:30:00.000-08:00

haha yes thats how noble I am. Open so many mine grounds for yenny to plant her flags! :D yes yenny i know you think that i rock. And for a zilian apple pie to think that way is cool to the max!

yay HAPPY CNY everybody. hopefully every student can take cab when sch starts after CNY(:

2007-02-15T17:15:00.000-08:00

im finally serving, thank God! (:
anw, tmr is my valentines day, so get ready to receive gifts tmr from me people!
WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR, SAY YAY! (:

2007-02-03T00:00:00.000-08:00

(was doing amath when phone rang.)
Pron: Hello.
Me: Hi Pron! (:
Pron: Rachel, do you know that idiom which says never judge a...
Me: Never judge a book by its cover?
Pron: Huh? I thought it was never judge a banana by its skin!
Me: Wahaha. You serious?
Pron: Ya! Thanks anw(:

haha, never judge a banana by its skin - classic.
pron you make me laugh all the time :D

oh well. today was pretty ok, until the last period.
wa liao. things were fine, until mrs ang left. then i had to handle the class cause hwee ting had to go for her tennis tournament.
AHH! crapalooloo. so many things, so little time. ohmytian.

anw, turn on the waterworks, cause yongzilla is gonna get emo.
if the waterworks are off, she'll tear down the city.
dont try.

anw, sorry eunice for not being able to go and support you for your match):
i still love you! <3

2007-02-01T21:30:00.000-08:00

whee, everything is still ok lah, besides the mood swings and everything.
tmr there's emaths spring test, im looking forward to practising till night ends!
yay that'll be fun.
and i dont like yenny lim yenn ruong, the loser bigger than me.
ILOVEEUNICECHEWENCI, thanks for being there <3
thank God for you, bestie(:

2007-01-30T23:45:00.000-08:00

ohmytian!
everything is so nonsensical, I cant take it anymore.
like what the hell, school is just a nonsense shit place where I go to, its my false comfort zone.
why cant i just go to the real comfort zone?
and the teachers are so annoying, they pile up all the nonsensical hw up to your head until you just wanna die cause of stress.
like ohmytian, and people around you just keep on adding pressure and pressure until you just burst out in tears.
and i dont know whats wrong with me, I keep on falling into the ways of the world when I just wanna turn my back on it. everything backfires. SO CRAPPY! wtf.
and I get so influenced by so much shit recently, my mind is so corrupted with so much crap. not corrupted by you-know-what, but with thoughts of harming others. WTH is wrong with me.
everything is just so shit and shit and shit. im sorry for being so vulgar.
I hate my PMSing life, nonsense.
God, take my strings. take all of me. take all of me.

2007-01-28T17:40:00.000-08:00

emo emo! (:
i still miss OBS like siao. the kayaking and all. today in church I was like telling waiian and everything, and she was calling me a loser 'cause my tent collapsed. -.- and she's so mean! meano-pok! ):
anw, today is back to the basics, studying in a comfortable environment and everything, it just seems so different. believe me, if I had a choice, I would give up all my books and head straight to OBS again! im serious. (:
hmm, so today waiian and I found out jiaqi is going in march! hahahah, have fun jiaqi, but rmb to pack the both of us in your luggage.

I MISS DAPHNEANDY <3
I MISS KAYAKING.
I MISS SINGING "WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER"!
I MISS TREKKING FOR 14 KM STRAIGHT (although its tiring to the max)
I MISS WATCHING OUT FOR THE WILD BOARS.
I MISS PEEING BY THE SEA SIDE.
I MISS SETTING UP THE TENT WHICH COLLAPSED TIME AND AGAIN!
I MISS SCREAMING ITCHY ITCHY CAUSE OF MOSSIE AND SANDFLY BITES.
I MISS PLAYING MASAK MASAK WITH REAL FOOD, AND CHUYI BEING THE ROADSTALL AUNTIE :D
I MISS THE JETTY JUMP, WHERE I SCREAMED AND THE NEXT MOMENT, SALTY WATER RUSHES UP MY NOSE!
I MISS SAYING "OHMYTIAN" AND "GROSS-TO-THE MAX" OR "(FILL IN THE BLANK) TO THE MAX".
I MISS TEASING COCONUT (though its mean-to-the-max)
I MISS RUSHING OUT THE WHOLE STORE.
I MISS OBS, WHY DIDN'T I HIDE IN THE INSTRUCTOR'S TOILET?! AHHHHH!

now im stressed to the max, cause of tests! yuckapoopoo!
&my thumbdrive is gone! with the stupid KKK powerpoint inside, yucks.
everything is not going well. I WANT OBS NOW NOW NOW! (:

2007-01-27T20:15:00.000-08:00

OBS WAS FUN! :D
WEWANTMORE! (:
SHACKLETON&TENZING<3
DAPHNEANDY, WE MISS YOU TRUCKLOADS<33
anw, so many things happened during these 5days, bonding and everything.
and we found out who likes who ((: and who hates who. but not so much of the who hates who.
'cause now 3e8 is super duper bonded<3 thank God for that!

daphneandy
daphneandy
daphneandy we love them both
we dont want to go back home now
'cause we all love daphneandy<3

& we're all in this together <3333

Together, together, together everyone
Together, together, come on lets have some fun
Together, we're there for each other every time
Together together come on lets do this right

Here and now its time for celebration
I finally figured it out (yeah yeah)
That all our dreams have no limitations
That's what its all about

Everyone is special in their own way
We make each other strong (each other strong)
We're not the same
We're different in a good way
Together's where we belong

We're all in this together
Once we know
That we are
We're all stars
And we see that
We're all in this together
And it shows
When we stand
Hand in hand
Make our dreams come true

We're all here and speaking out with one voice
We're going to rock the house (yeah, yeah)
The party's on now everybody make some noise
Come on scream and shout
We've arrived becuase we stuck together
Champions one and all

We're all in this together
When we reach
We can fly
Know inside
We can make it
We're all in this together
Once we see
There's a chance
That we have
And we take it

3/8 sing along
Yeah, you really got it goin' on
3/8 in the house
Everybody say it now
3/8 everywhere
Wave your hands up in the air
That's the way we do it
Let's get to it
Time to show the world

yay let's all get addicted to it<3

2007-01-08T21:25:00.000-08:00

where did I go wrong, I lost a friend somewhere along the ~~bitterness~~

ok, so min-li is gonna leave us for good to Australia. F-O-R-E-V-E-R.
oh no! I'm really gonna miss her! Like her blurness and everything, and of course I'm gonna miss those times where we had so much fun at Sonicfest '05(:
hee, but I still believe God is gonna use her in Australia, to be a fisher of Man! yes!(:

how to save a life.

2007-01-07T18:10:00.000-08:00

There's just so much I want to say, haha. But everything just vanished when I reached the omputer -.- so I shall just sum up that I've learnt today with one phrase: Do not over-spiritualise things(:

Oh wells, yesterday was eventful. Like the whole day was just so nonscensical (except for service & cell of course). Long story. Ask me about it if you wanna know(:

2007-01-05T18:20:00.000-08:00

3e8 is fun! haha there are so many cool people there, and I'm enjoying it. today was at Singapore Discovery Centre, and it'll be our one and only excursion for the year. BOO! ): ohwells, im not gonna exclude OBS, which I'm looking forward to! But, good things dont last! Melody, Hwee Ting and Eunice are not going 'cause of their CCA! oh no):

SDC! we played charades (not serenades, hweeting!) on the bus, and hwee ting was smart enough to guess everything. I couldnt figure anything out): hee, and cai miao helped us in some of them too! haha so funny lah(: then we reached SDC, found out more about Singapore, then went for some SAFTI bus ride. We drove beside a group of marching NS men, and they kept waving at us. Hwee ting said the one carrying the red flag is cute -.- haha, I thought he was ok only. (: hee.

the guy with the red flag.soldiers marching. NS men rather. some of them were pretty cute :D

NS men marching. I was trying to look for DJ, but I dint see him :D

anw, after all the NS men thing, we went back to school on this stupid stuffy bus. I wondered how hwee ting could actually sleep in that kind of environment lah! yucks. everyone at the back were slping except a few of us, it was HEATY! ):

unglam! =Xhwee(:this is abstract art. it's found at the SAFTI entrance. It's actually 2 men fighting, but I saw it as one man kowtowing and praying! so cool right(: yes, I do have a creative mind :D (stop rolling your eyes lah!)

eunice and chu yi! (:

then hwee and I went to parkway to have lunch and walk around. we decided not to eat so soon, so we walked into hallmark. walking around, then saw this whole basket of keychains! so nice :D so we were choosing which one to buy for each other, then she saw this keychain saying nice, and christian(: whee, we wanted to buy the same keychain, when we picked up another pair of keychains which were exactly the same! haha, so in the end she bought the 2nd one for me and I bought the first one for her! (:

ok, after everything we walked around a little bit more and decided to eat at KFC. rip off! >:( but we still ate anw, and when we were finishing our meal saa and her friends came along! hee, they actually went to ECP! and they spent the whole time in macs -.- oh well! (: after eating lunch we walked a little bit more and went home(:

PS. to eunice chew: hey, check out this website! everyone else can check it out too! www.deviantart.com/deviation/43025356/

2007-01-01T00:00:00.000-08:00

Isaiah 43:18 - "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past."

This verse really spoke to me! God revealed! (:

Anw, bottomline is, God has given us a mind to think. To think & reflect. So, I have reflected on my past during the course of this holiday and figured that I havent been spending much time with God! BUT! God has been faithful and frogiving. His mercy is unfailing, & He has loved me whenever Im unworthy. When I fell into the snares of sins, He rescues. When I called, He answered. God has indeed been a gracious God in the year of 2006, & He will always be, no matter what year it is, always and forever! :D

In Isaiah 43:18, God tells me not to dwell on the past. I should let go of 2006 & welcome 2007 with open arms. Be an expectant christian and expect God to use me during the course of this year. Of course, I must be willing to be used by God for the extention of His kingdom(: Hold on to what God has planned for me this year.

I shall forget whatever bad that has happened to me in 2006. I will not dwell on the past, but see what new things God has planned and will do for me. I shall kick out and leave the bad stuff in 2006, and bring good habits along with me to 2007. WHEE! I look forward to the great miracles God will perform in 2007. wait & see, press on with faith :DDD

oh & you're free to really slap me and give me a wake up call if you find that Im drifting away from God real badly this year(:

The LORD is my source of purity; He shall wash away the impurities within me with light.

God has opened my eyes and blessed me with people who have been spurring me on in my stagnant spiritual walk during the holidays. Thank God for them! (:

2006-12-25T22:10:00.000-08:00

Hello! I know it's been very long since I've updated my blog!
SAYSAYSAY! What day is it today?
Merry CHRISTmas everyone! (:
Pics from service today :D

val, me.

keith! :D He's super funny!

KEANNE!

gen((:

JIAQI! <3

Here are some pics from carolling :D credits to phoebe(:

chris me steph jiaqi phoebe

finally, we got the picture right! Thanks loads gen(:

the inverted clock! so cool! (:
what was I doing! UNGLAM! >< hannah and I mocking the ah-lians/bimbos.
jb playing the guitar, benchong trying to steal the limelight? CANDID. the rest of us were the audience :D
chris and I. what is samlee doing in the foreground -.-

ok I was supposed to sit next to keith and talk to him. why did phoebe take this? 0.O

MERRY CHRISTMAS FOLKS! And always remember that Christmas is the season for giving and forgiving :D

2006-12-18T23:15:00.000-08:00

yay im very happy(: because more of my friends are gonna get saved. WOOHOO!
To God be the glory, He's moving! :D
&yes, I wanna be an intercessor((:
WHEE :DD

2006-12-12T14:15:00.000-08:00

Psalm 77:19-20 - "Your path led through the sea, Your way through the mighty waters, though Your footprints were not seen. You led Your people like a flock by the hand of Moses and Aaron."

This morning, I was wondering why I could feel God's presence during QT for a moment, and for the next moment, it just vanished. Was I not praying hard enough? Was I not paying all my attention to Him? I asked God to answer my question through the Bible, and He gave me the verse above(: How comforting :D

This helped me to understand that although sometimes we are like lost sheep, and we cannot feel God's presence in our lives, He will always be with us. His footprints does not have to be seen all the time, but we must believe that He is still there, being the faithful God who guides us in every step we make :D

2006-12-10T21:40:00.000-08:00

it's kinda sad how you can be so close to one person and not be close anymore the next minute!
oh well, I think this shall be my shortest post, &im gonna break fast soon! whee(:

2006-12-08T11:20:00.000-08:00

U-TURN!
just came back from camp :D
and my life, although it has made a u-turn before the camp, it has indeed caused other fellow christians to turn back! and thank God for that, truly(: ok i shall blog about what happened!

Day 1
went to church feeling excited and nervous. was almost late, although I left the house super early. registered, got my camp t-shirt. then went to sit down, feeling really left out because most of the people in my group were guys. then tried to talk to the girls. they were shy! haha. then steph my ATL came. talked to her, cause we were quite close. then it was time for ice-breakers. played whacko! it was fun! because we kept calling Joel's name and he was making a lot of noise. haha. then it was time for all the campers to gather. we played this "shoe" game, really lame lah. then it was time for us to leave BPMC.

ok, in the bus. charleen tried to make us sing songs like "rejoice" and all. but only the buay hao bai guys sang. made friends with WAI IAN! <3 haha she's from rgs, and nope, she's not snobbish, she's one of the most outgoing girls I've seen. NICE! we talked about school, rgs mainly. haha and she know's who's xiner and lihui! yay! the talked a lil bit to joseph, david yong and daniel chong. and we reached sentosa, the SU campsite. everyone gathered at the hall of worship and the SU campsite, and it was time for bunk allocation. whee, thank God zhimin and I were in the same bunk! like double yayness! 'cause we could talk at night! (: so we went to our bunks, unpacked and gathered for games. JOEL is the funniest man! :DD oh we had food games, we were supposed to eat and eat and eat, but all the smart people like me nicole and lynette spat out everything. but hey! the fishballs were good to eat! :D haha everyone wanted a second go at it.

ok after all the games (food games and treasue hunt), we had our meals, and then we went for P&W at night! SUPER PACT worship, like WOOHOOO! I just felt like jumping and praising God, but didnt): then "so you would come" was played. i cried uncontrollably! and was crying out, because images from passion of the christ kept flashing in my mind. then altar call came. LIKE PTL! becuase so many non-chistians came out, and yes, my prayer is answered - more people had their names recorded on the book of life! God is just so great. kneeled down and worshipped HIM! wheeeeeeeeee. then cyrus asked for those who had burdens and troubles before thay came for camp. samuelyong raised up his hand. i prayed for him so passionately, and cried out to God. then i stood up. but no, i felt it wasnt enough because I forgot to pray for smth - his relationship with justin. so i just cried out to God and asked to help reconcile him and justin. i thought it had worked, but nah, samuel yong just couldnt talk to justin yet! eeeee! but nevermind, i still thank God for everything, and for answering most of my prayer requests on Day 1.

couldnt go to sleep that night, still feeling excited over worship. talked to zhimin and elke. elke is nice ok! but sadly, she had to leave on day 2 for prom night): and i had to do QT the next day because lights out by 11.30pm. oh well. set my alarm at 6am and went to bed after thanking God for the great time of worship.

Day 2
was scared by elke 'cause of her long hair. woke up to do QT. then talked to zhimin about lotsa stuff. gathered, had our meals and all. nicole told me that I was compatible with _____. haha i was shocked lah! then team time we discussed about our play, then that joel assigned me to be GHANDI! like what? but nevertheless, I loved the role(: joel siao lang, say I look like the female ghandi! HAWHAW. worship was not as good as the day before, but still, I prasied God and worshipped Him, and talked to the girls and guys who finally opened up(: we became closer, i guess :D

night games - it rained, so benchong and danielle came up of this lame game, making up letters using our bodies. yup, so we ran up doing the letters they asked for! haha then the rain stopped, God's grace! 'cause many of the game-masters prayed(: yup, so we could carry on with the night games. it was this game called "radioactive worms", lame lah! haha the radioactive worms were actually light sticks. think they spent about 100 bucks on those things(: i kept beating nat(everyone calls her tash because she's natasha, but i call her nat!) in scissors paper stone and managed to take 2 worms everytime :D i cheated when i was not supposed to): but yeah, God forgave me and I faced the consequences lah. oh well.

sharing - I went on stage to share how great God has been and will be, thank God for blessing me with a wonderful team who opens up and all. then cyrus closed and we all went to bed. since elke already left, zhimin was our new bunk ic. woah! I dint know my bestfriend is scary when she scolds! hahah.

lights out - talked to zhimin about lotsa stuff. like how J was being such a jerk and all. yup. then somehow linked to talk to God, and singing His praises(: whee, then went to bed(:

Day 3
woke up thinking of my bed at home(: hee, looking forward to the great day ahead. gathered again, then had worship. then went for games. Treasure hunt part 2. carried out all our jobs properly, managed to solve 4 out of 5 clues(: yay, thank God for that too. and thank to horeb for being so enthu((:

went back to campsite with team teberah. admire joseph for his courage and God-given talents to lead the team when elke is not around. was late for abt 15 mins. kebar river was first; they managed to do all the clues(: good for them(: haha. had team-time after dinner, finalised our play and all(: practised. joel pro joker lah, he decided to do impromptu, applaud him for his courage(: then it was time for the concert, we saw all the other teams performing. wah, then devil tried to snatch the confidence we had in us): oh well, but i still think we did a great job, cause justin and joel were there. AND THE expression-less BROOM TREE too. thanks a lot gideon! hahahah.

then came worship! once again, it was like day1. altar call, went up to pray for zhimin! yay. then jumped and danced for God! haha. then when we were singing, DJ who was leading suddenly zao xia! HAHAH funny lah that guy! oh wells, once again, images from passion of christ came back to my mind. yup, worshipped in broken-ness, whee.

sharing - EMO! so many people opened up, people like JB, Joel, Jon. wah all the J people! haah. prayed for them, and when jon's turn came, I cried. God is moving, HE IS! And I love all those people, and God loves them and me too! :D God's love is SOOOOOOO great! (:

last night already what, tradition to stay up the whole night. yup. zhimin and I found a place to sit down, then i put down my stuff to go find nat samlee and val to play bridge. haha we won thanks to val! then left the banquet hall, went back to quiet place. then saw one big grp of pple there, ended up playing games. wah DJ funny guy again, can remember things like e=mc-square, but cant play simple games like the animal game and all. hahaha. then we played hand games, steph and DJ sabo-ed phileo. haha. then steph had to leave, then everyone else left too. so I went to write letters. and talk to jiaqi and zhimin. both of them still look cute in glasses lah! serious! (:

then nicole and lynette came along, asked me for markers to design letters for the grp, so sweet of them. (: haha then phibert and gideon came along, funny lah gideon. haha then he went to write funny messages on our notes! like what, he thought i was ATL can? but it was actually stpeh. heh. then JB came along, comforted him and all. haha. then talked to the guys who came along, that's why took around 1hour to finish bimbo's letter. then my body couldnt take it. slept at 7, woke up at 8-plus :D whee.

Day 4
woke up at 8-plus. cleaned up and all, was feeling ok. then time for worship, although I was lethargic, kept telling myself to give God my all. yes, then my team and I had our last meals together. was feeling a bit bu-she-de. yup. team-time, we talked. then I said maybe one day nicole and joel will marry each other one day. then gideon called me a nigger! LIKE WHAT! then joel said if he ever marries nicole, I'll marry and banglah! like what! so much for being ghandi! haha.

then said bye to the campsite and left): then ended up in the same bus as all the funny guys and nice girls <3 talked to steph. then suddenly all the funny guys (who were at the back) started being emo-kids! sang backstreet boys, then broke up into songs like "breaking free". haha steph and I decided to listen to goong! GOONG! haha then we tried to sing along, like stpeh is good at it man! hahah. she could sing every korean work properly! perfectionist! haha. then sang HSM nicely, not like the guys! time flies so quickly, we reached BPMC before we even knew it): had our last de-briefing and gave 3 cheers to God for making the camp a huge success! <3 (:

PTL! I love God truckloads, and I will die for Him when the need comes. Mark my words, and my only fear is that I'll back out when the time really comes. Im sure God will give me the courage that I need <3

Before the world began,
you were on his mind.
& every tear you cried,
is precious in His eyes.
Because of His great love,
He gave His only son.
Everything was done,
so you would come.

2006-12-02T14:10:00.000-08:00

It took me quite a while to realise almost all my posts have smth to do with Janel. oh well :/ not like I'm obsessed with her or anything. haha! My world doesn't revolve around her, it revolves around God! yay!

whee, got service and cell later. brother went for leader's retreat, hope he'll gave a great time. AHH! he better tell me the groupings ok! so annoying, he knows which group I'm in but refuses to tell me, like WHAT!! haha. I hope to be in jiaqi's group(: but no lah, must go out and make more friends, like that more fun :D

2 more days! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

2006-11-29T13:35:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry this came super late(: but yeah, thanks to all of you who have either wished me or gave me anything below! love loads! <3 happy 14th to me! :DDDD

it's in the tickets(:

drawn by the two greatest artists ever :DDD

2006-11-28T16:20:00.000-08:00

compare the prophecy from the chronicles of narnia to the prophecy from the bible. see the simialarity?

watched final destination 1 and 2 this morning, GRUESOME. decapitation and everything! like what! technology is so advanced now, with just some work of the computer, heads can be detached from bodies with blood spewing everywhere. oh well :/

yay U-TURN camp is in 6 days! like man! God's presence and His great works will be shown through this camp if we just believe and put all faith on Him! wheeeeeeeeeeee. just thinking of it makes me so excited! how non-believers can be converted to christians burning on fire for God by just a few days of contact with christians! and how christians can live radically in this world of darkness and shine even brighter in God's glory, like WOOHOO! (:

whee, countdown starts all over again :D

2006-11-26T23:15:00.000-08:00

today at church I learnt a lot on discerning God's will for me, YAY! thank you for opening my spiritual eyes and ears God! <3 then went to janel's hse, yes my sense of direction sucks real bad ok, unlike some people's. oh well, janel's mother is nice(: gave me a warm welcome even though she was not feeling well. watched parts of tokyo drift, then watched take the lead with janel&zhengyi! ILOVETAKETHELEADOK! go and watch it when you have the time, like woah, you'll lose yourself in the coolest dance moves ever! whee. SEAWEED DRESS! haha(:

oh and after much consideration I have decided not to be a pilot(:

2006-11-24T13:55:00.000-08:00

hey all! thanks for all the birthday wishes&gifts! <3
you guys seriously rock man! especially tkgcell, thanks for making birthday wonderfully enjoyable. <33
last but not least; GOD! thanks for planning my birth 14 years back, &thank you for forgiving for all my sins for these past 14 years and for Your unfailing love despite my sinful nature(: <33333

2006-11-22T18:30:00.000-08:00

It's tomorrow! YES! :DDDDDDD

My brother is too good to be true. I just asked him for his ipod and he was like, "Take it, when I get my new handphone I won't be needing it." Like woah, since when has he been so generous? but still, thank you samuel yong, its probably my birthday present or smth :D whee, tmr & friday is going to be funfunfun!(: Oh and I think I have the best parents in the world; my mother decided to postpone my birthday dinner until daddy is back from china<3 (:

I need to start reading up already! Holidays are going to end soon, but still im gonna welcome 3e8 with open arms <3

2006-11-21T15:00:00.000-08:00

Thank God janel&team came back safely(:

roughly about 2 more hours to the birth of my sea monkeys! yay. oh this morning was super gay, woke up and started msging janel. then called her and conference with audrey. audrey kept saying she was worried about hannah. yeah, I think im worried too. oh and last night finally bought my running shorts, thank God it could fit!

Came To The Rescue - Hillsong United
Falling on my knees in worship
Giving all I am to seek Your face
Lord all I am is Yours

My whole life I place in Your hands
God of mercy
Humbled I bow down
In your presence, at Your throne

I called
You answered
And You came to my rescue
I wanna be where You are

In my life
Be lifted high
In our world
Be lifted high
In our love
Be lifted high

2006-11-21T00:10:00.000-08:00

2 more days! :DDDD

I dont think im as annoyed with my parents now. oh well :/ called janel at about 11pm just now, she was in the plane &she bought me kueh lapis&some other stuff. thank you janel <3 yes, im excited that janel is back and all, but disappointed that I cant go to the airport to witness even more excitement. haha!

I think I've been weird lately. Getting excited easily about stuff. It all started with the class combination thing. I dint know why I was so excited about getting into 3e8, haha. I think it was because my mind wasn't in its right frame and maybe another reason was that I'm gonna enter a new phase of my life, HAHA! yeah, but im still anitcipating the "fun" we'll have as being the eighters. Hopefully we'll be united :D

Secondly, it is the project superstar thing! I know its super random ok! but yeah, NATHANIEL took part, the one who looks like joakim gomez. haha, oh and for the girls section I support dawn! Her voice is nice! Yay!

Thirdly is my ambition of being a pilot! hah I keep blabbering about it non-stop! cant wait till I grow up. Heard that if you wanna be a pilot the company will subsidise the fee for the lasik surgery. coolness right? and it's just so fun being in the sky! but another thing is that you've got about 200 lives in your hands :D

Next is the sea monkey thing! went to vivo today! initially wanted to buy the ant farm but when I saw the sea monkey toy I wanted it immediately! Not cheap ok, its 22 bucks! yup, but I cant wait for them to grow up! yay! :DD

Lastly, it's janel coming back from medan. AHH! yes finally after 7 days without a talking mate (besides Cheryltan, zy & audrey). shes back and she bought me stuff! whee. oh well, i dont think janel misses me the most right? OBVIOUSLY ((:

2006-11-20T20:55:00.000-08:00

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im super annoyed now! super x10000000
my parents dont allow me to receive janel &the team at the airport today!
why? because its late.
but janel alr allow me to stayover at her hse what!
oh well :/
i think i'll just call, whats the phone for? (:

2006-11-20T19:10:00.000-08:00

3 more days! :DDD

went to vivo with family :D
oh zy was there too, he was on a movie marathon, watching two movies.
wanted to go arcade, but ended up in toyrus(:
initially wanted to buy this huge elmo soft toy, but mother was afraid it'll collect dust.
so bought the janel-introduced sea-monkey! :D
im waiting for another 21hr 35mins so that I can put the sea-monkey eggs in it!
cant wait! :D
&the best thing is, their aquarium is ORANGE!! :DD

janel is coming home today! whee, cant wait! (:
lets play at the airport; catching and pushing the trolleys :D

2006-11-19T17:45:00.000-08:00

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." - Matthew 6:33

3 more days! :DDD

The verse above taught me a lot on discerning God's will for me. It basically means that the main point in whatever we do (how we serve God etc.) is to grow closer to Him and obviously what we do has to be right, and everything will just fall into place.

I have been asking God if I should serve Him through drama. yesyes IHAVEAPASSIONFORDRAMA! because of this verse, I know that no matter how I serve Him, I'll grow closer to Him because of my service :D yay.

oh well. I have a feeling this post sounds weird. no, reeeeeeeeally weird. \:

2006-11-19T00:45:00.000-08:00

4 more days :DD

megalife service was just as good today(: yes medan team made a difference in medan! thank God for that! so many people received salvation and everything, even a deaf&mute man could say "Jesus" after the team prayed, all God's glory! indeed, God's works are miracles, yay! :D

I wanna recieve Janel and the team on the 20th!! hopefully mother and father will allow :D it's so late at night, pray God will give them the assurance and trust that I will be safe in the protection He will provide me at the airport! yay! I wanna watch "passion of the christ" again. will bug janel about it when she comes back from medan :D

there was once a boy who loved his father a lot and vice versa. the boy had a bag full of colourful marbles, but there was a particular marble which he loved the best - the BLUE marble. one day, his father approached him and said, "Son, do you love me?"

"Of course I love you daddy," replied the boy.

"Ok, since you said you love me, will you give me what I ask you to?"

The boy nodded.

"Son, to test how much you love me, I want you to give me the marbles which you like."

The boy took pretended not to notice his favourite marble and took all his other marbles and handed them to his father, only leaving the blue marble in the bag.

"Son, I don't want these marbles, I want that blue marble."

The boy's heart skipped a beat. His father had just asked him for the one and only marble he loved the most. After debating in his heart, he decided to give his blue marble to his father - becuase he knew he loved his father a lot.

"Son, actually I know how much you love me. But because you have handed me your blue marble, you now know how much you love me. You can have your blue marble back."

this morning, I was just thinking about how close friends can be separated physically due to different interests in education. like how janel, kim, lxq, joycelee, sha, raman, nat, navina will be separated from me next year because of the different subject combinations and janel's IP programme. it's actually kinda sad to think how we may drift apart next year. of course, separation is inevitable. and i've finally found the link between today's sermon and this situation(: "To test our love for Him(God), He may take away what seems very important and what means a lot to us (eg. a friend, a sentimental gift etc.). But, God will always return what He took away from you if you 'pass' His test. By just submitting to Him in faith & perseverance, we'll know how much we love Him." see how this relates to the story above?

like what kim said, "If you love something a lot, let it go. If it's meant to be yours, it'll return to you." It may sound cliched and all, but if you think about it, dont you think it's true? yes I agree with this statement, and I believe that God will put us all together again in the future, somehow or another through His great works(: yay :D

2006-11-17T21:00:00.000-08:00

think I spent too much time on the computer today. oh well, it's not like I broke my record.
was searching for guitar chords, trying to work them out on the guitar.
but being a music idiot, obviously nothing worked out, but im still going to press on! yay.
oh maybe photoshop digital imaging is my game, all I need is more inspiration and creative juices!
haha; thank God for my newfound talent :D

2006-11-16T20:25:00.000-08:00

Today has been an eventful day(:
learnt a lot about conquering the fear satan attacks me with from chai! was going to cry at the bench we were sitting on for one hour plus. thanks loads chai!<3 went to chai's hse to design celltee, she kept saying my design looks mature. after that went off to sing songs, P&W. chai is such a good singer(: oh and guess what, sec 3 combination results are out today. chai and I were screaming our heads off, maybe people downstairs could hear. oh and we were thinking of every person we could complain to :D I think im gonna die being in the same class as AHEM. seriously! wah kim lxq and joycelee are like destined to be in the same class lah :DD good for them. im gonna miss a lot of people, esp JANEL, KIM, LXQ, JOYCELEE, HUIFEN, JESSIE, LEER, NAVINA, RAMAN, NAT, YAN, SHA, MELISSA, DELICIA AND A LOT MORE. but the great and awesome God blessed me with people like melody, charmaine and liting next year, PTL! maybe it's just God's will I get into same class as AHEM, maybe it's a sign telling me to learn to love AHEM. God's will will be done, &I know whatever class He puts me into, I have to thank Him! because I know the path He chose for me will not harm me, yay. continue to praise Him in all circumstances :DD haha chai screams at the slightest! funny((: ohoh and on the way back home, i saw this fat lady and she kept lying on her bf's body. her bf was standing up for nuts, i thought i was gonna puke. hee.
hello 3e8, here I come! :D

2006-11-14T18:15:00.000-08:00

from chai! :DDD

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Bold the questions and with the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

How are you feeling today?
two phrases - uh, ok im feeling happy and high!

Will you get far in life?
you found me - haha i've walked a long way till God found me! that means i'll get quite far(:

How do your friends see you?
come get some - obscenity! dont think dirty((: they can get some knowledge from the smart me!(: nah just kidding.

Will you get married?
i will boast - AHH! I'll get married? -.-

What's your best friend's theme song?
catch your wave - I'd rather catch your smartness! :D

What is the story of your life?
behind these hazel eyes - wah! so sad! ): God will make me happy(:

What was primary school like?
reason i live - no, pri sch was not the reason i lived, God was, is, and will always be! :DD

What is the best thing about your friends?
crawl - haha they dont walk, they crawl. nah, just kidding(:

What is in store for this weekend?
don't tell me - I don't wanna know either.

What song describes you?
breaking free - HAHA! im already free, through salvation! whee, there's no need to break free already.

To describe your grandparents?
evermore - haha i love them, evermore.

How is your life going?
free - yes! from all the stress in school. i love the holidays!

What song will they play at your funeral?
i'll be there for you - haha that'll be creepy. like I'll be there for you.

How does the world see you?
i'm not missing you - aww. no one misses me):

You have a happy life?
looking at you - i guess so. still havent found mr. right :D

What do your friends really think of you?
simply - ooh. im so not simple.

Do people secretly lust after you?
don't phunk with my heart - haha, so not.

How can I make myself happy?
look to You - by looking to the awesome God!

What should you do with your life?
Yours is the kingdom - by giving my life to the good of His kingdom!

Will you ever have children?
the rest of my days - does that mean I'll have children? :D

2006-11-14T15:45:00.000-08:00

Janel is in Medan now(:
haha couldn't see her off today, but had a short&sweet convo with her.
she was rushing to get to the plane. hee, the convo was about 1min and 26secs.
but anw, she is safe and sound in medan now (thank GOD!), the flight was only 2 hours.
SO SHORT.
and that girl still hasnt replied my message yet, so much for bringing her handphone there! :D
oh &it's sad they pushed the combination results to friday, eee!
but im looking forward to thurs, because im gonna desgin cell teeshirt with chai at her house!
yay yay yay! :DD

2006-11-12T16:25:00.000-08:00

I think I should learn how to curb my temper sometimes, especially on PMS days.
I get really, really agitated easily.

Anyway, I finally found out why I can't sense God's presence during worship! It's becuase I don't have the fear of God, which I will have, if I just place my faith in Him and obey His commands. Yay, I'm gonna start by curbing my horrid anger and not vent it on certain stuff.

Have I been taking God for granted? That is a question that just dawned on me.

Thinking back in 2006, I guess I have been really taking God for granted, putting my studies over Him, and I always want Him to be there for me, but I don't even bother to prioritise and put Him first instead of my studies. I don't bother to answer to His calling because my studies came first. I didn't even realise I was drifting away from God until about August, when I just couldn't feel Him. Then when the EOYs came, I decided to skip church to stay home to study for the exams. I didn't feel like going to church. Then later I realised God was watching me, and obviously I knew He was disappointed. Becuase that very morning I couldn't get science facts into my head. The next morning I told Janel I skipped church, and she scolded me; that was my wake up call. I felt guilty for neglecting God for the past 3-4 months. &after the exams, started going riverlife, really felt happy because God is back in my life again.

Somehow, now I feel 2006 is a "very wasted" year because although in the first few months I was really excited about church and all, it was a short term excitement. I still drifted away from Him anyway, and didn't bother to grow closer to Him because of commitments. Now I feel the need to know His will for me, and I feel the urgency and desire to read His word. Although I still find it difficult to feel His presence, I'll wait and press on with faith. I know with constant obedience and prayer to Him, I'll cultivate the fear of God(:

Dear God,
I'm very sorry that I have been neglecting You and taking You for granted for the past 3-4 months. I'm also very sorry for doubting Your real-ness sometimes; now I know that these sinful thoughts are from the devil, and Lord I wanna pray that with Your strength I will cast these thoughts away. I know You are always there. I know You are a forgiving God and will forgive me for my sins. Thank You for Your unfailing tolerance towards my sins. Thank You for using Janel to help me grow closer to You during the holidays. Lord, I just want to pray that the desire to know You and Your will for me will continue to burn. I ask You to help me make the right decisions next year, which will please You and help me understand You more. I pray that next year will be a meaningful year of 2007 with You filling up the gap in my life. Lord, I want to make a promise that I will put in first in everything I do, even my studies. And Lord, as I read Your word, please slowly unveil Your will because I really really want to know it. And when I know Your will, I will do whatever You desire because I love You God, and I want to obey You and I know that whatever I do is for Your glory, and not mine. All this I pray in Jesus' name, AMEN.

I feel so much better now, because of the AWESOME God.
PRAISE HIM, PRAISE HIM, PRAISE HIM IN EVERYTHING! <3

2006-11-10T23:05:00.000-08:00

I dint expect any new message when I opened the inbox of my gmail account, but I was wrong.
I found this, lame man!

"FROM THE DESK OF GODWIN AMIRI (ESQ).
THE HEAD OF FILE DEPARTMENT, AFRICANDEVELOPMENT BANK (ADB)OUAGADOUGOU BURKINA-FASO WEST AFRICA.
PHONE: 00226-7641 7520.
PLANE CRASH WEB SITE...http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/world/europe/859479.stm

("REMITTANCE OF $15 MILLION U.S.A DOLLARS

CONFIDENTIAL IS THE CASE")

COMLIMENTS OF THE SEASON 2006,

I AM (GODWIN AMIRI ESQ),HEAD OF FILE DEPARTMENT & DEBT RECOVERING INAFRICAN DEVELOPMENT BANK OUAGADOUGOU BURKINA-FASO IN WEST AFRICA.

FIRST, I MUST SOLICIT YOUR CONFIDENCE IN THIS TRANSACTION.THIS IS BYVIRTUE OF ITS NATURE AS BEING UTTERLY CONFIDENTIAL AND TOP SECRET.HOWEVER AFTER SERIES OF PETITION WAS RECIEVED BY THIS PRESENT REGIME FROMFOREIGN CONTRACTORS AND INABILITY OF THE AFRICAN DEVELOPMENT BANK (ADB)TOFULFILL THEIR OBLIGATION FOR THE PAYMENT TO ITS FOREIGN CREDITORS, INCONJUNCTION WITH THE COUNCIL OF MINISTERS, THEY MANDATED US TO CARRY OUT ACAREFUL AND COMPREHENSIVE REVIEW OF ALL OVERDUE PAYMENTS TO FOREIGNCONTRACTORS AND TO EFFECT PAYMENTS IMMEDIATELY.

DURING THE ABOVE MENTIONED PROCESS, WE DISCOVERED AN ABANDONED SUM OF US$15M(FIFTEEN MILLION US DOLLARS) IN AN ACCOUNT THAT BELONGS TO ONE OF OURFOREIGN CUSTOMER WHO DIED ALONG WITH HIS ENTIRE FAMILY IN A PLANE CRASH THATHAPPENED IN (MONDAY 31ST JULY 2000). SINCE WE GOT INFORMATION ABOUT HISDEATH, WE HAVE BEEN EXPECTING HIS NEXT OF KIN TO COME OVER AND CLAIM HISMONEY BECAUSE WE CANNOT RELEASE IT UNLESS SOME BODY APPLIES FOR IT AS NEXT OF KIN OR RELATION TO THE DECEASED AS INDICATED IN OUR BANKING GUIDELINESAND LAWS BUT UNFORTUNATELY WE LEARNT THAT ALL HIS SUPPOSED NEXT OF KIN ORRELATION DIED ALONGSIDE WITH HIM AT THE PLANE CRASH LEAVING NOBODY BEHIND FOR THE CLAIM.

IT IS THEREFORE UPON THIS DISCOVERY THAT I AND OTHER OFFICIALS IN MYDEPARTMENT NOW DECIDED TO MAKE THIS BUSINESS PROPOSAL TO YOU AND RELEASE THEMONEY TO YOU AS THE NEXT OF KIN OR RELATION TO THE DECEASED FOR SAFETY ANDSUBSEQUENT DISBURSEMENT SINCE NOBODY IS COMING FOR IT AND WE DON'T WANT THISMONEY TO GO INTO THE BANK TREASURY AS UNCLAIMED BILL.

I AGREE THAT 40% OF THIS MONEY WILL BE FOR YOU AS A FOREIGN PARTNER, INRESPECT TO THE PROVISION OF A FOREIGN ACCOUNT,AND 50% WOULD BE FOR ME, WHILE10% WILL BE FOR EXPENSES INCURE DURING THE TRANSACTION. THERE AFTER I WILLVISIT YOUR COUNTRY FOR DISBURSEMENT ACCORDING TO THE PERCENTAGEINDICATED.THEREFORE, TO ENABLE THE IMMEDIATE TRANSFER OF THIS FUND TO YOU ASARRANGED, YOU MUST APPLY FIRST TO THE BANK AS RELATION OR NEXT OF KIN OF THEDECEASED INDICATING YOUR BANK NAME, YOUR BANK ACCOUNT NUMBER, YOUR PRIVATETELEPHONE AND FAX NUMBER FOR EASY AND EFFECTIVE COMMUNICATION AND LOCATIONWHEREIN THE MONEY WILL BE REMITTED.

UPON THE RECEIPT OF YOUR REPLY, I WILL SEND TO YOU BY EMAIL THE TEXT OF THEAPPLICATION TO FILL AND SEND TO THE BANK. I WILL NOT FAIL TO BRING TO YOURNOTICE THAT THIS TRANSACTION IS HITCH-FREE RISK AND THIS TRANSACTION WILLONLY TAKE US 14 BANKING DAYS BECAUSE AS A BANKER, I KNOW WHAT TO DO AND MOVETHE FUND INTO YOUR ACCOUNT WITHOUT ANY DELAY AND THATYOU SHOULD NOTENTERTAIN ANY ATOM OF FEAR AS ALL REQUIRED ARRANGEMENT HAVE BEEN MADE FORTHE TRANSFER.

YOU SHOULD CONTACT ME OM MY NUMBER 00226-7641 7520 AS SOON AS YOU RECEIVETHIS LETTER SO THAT I WILL SEND YOU THE TEXT OF THE APPLICATION TO APPLY TOTHE BANK AND THE DATA INFORMATION OF THE DECEASED .

YOUR'S FAITHFULLY,

GODWIN AMIRI (ESQ).

FROM (ADB) OUAGADOUGOU BURKINA-FASO."

I was like "what crap" when I read it. but decided to expose the scam in case any of you are actually gullible enough to believe this kinda fluff :D cant wait to watch going home later! 11.30pm! whee.

2006-11-06T16:00:00.000-08:00

Open up the skies of mercy
And rain down the cleansing flood
Healing waters rise around us
Hear our cries Lord let 'em rise

It's your KINDNESS Lord
That leads us to repentance
Your favour Lord, is our desire
It's your beauty Lord
That makes us stand in silence
Your love, Your love
Is better than life

We can feel
Your mercy falling
You are turnin our hearts back again
Hear our praises rise to heaven
Draw us near Lord
Meet us here

Yes, Your unfailing love is indeed better than life(:

2006-11-05T18:25:00.000-08:00

BREAK-THROUGH!

PARACHUTE BAND! :DD haha i like the voice of juliagrace (the 2nd lady). her voice is so beautiful&crystal clear! haha.

this awesome band came to riverlife yesterday. nice man, their songs. im considering to buy their ablum. oh and I didnt know you could rap and praise at the same time, till yesterday! COOL :DD RAPTURE RUCKUS! SHOUT TO GOD IN HEAVEN! :D

yesterday riverlife service worship was real good. it's amazing how you can step into grace chapel and come out tearing. PJ is so good. thank God we have a pastor like her. so prothetic man! she's like able to tell what I want, she's so powerful. THANKS PJ! :DD

today BPMC was just as good, i guess. When charlene was praying, I felt something shaking in me. Guess it was the Holy Spirit! God answered my prayers! :D and sherlyn is so nice, gave me this really cute orange handphone sock(: with my fave orange shade! thanks sher! and im so glad zhimin decided to sign up for camp! hee. i signed up for it too! and the tshirt size is HUGE.

Pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.(:

2006-11-02T17:05:00.000-08:00

Kim's fault :D

7 songs in your mind now:
1 perhaps love - howl & j :DD
2 你.. 我都是傻瓜 - stay
3 i'm not missing you - staccie orrico
4 london bridge - fergie
5 mighty to save - hillsong
6 jesus, lover of my soul - hillsong
7 let my words be few - matt redman

7 important people in your life:
1 GOD
2 family
3 friends :D

7 singers you love:
1 hillsong
2 planetshakers
3 KIM JUNG HOON <33 :DD
4 chris tomlin
5 christian city church
6 parachute band
7 delirious?

7 things you did yesterday:
1 watch goong
2 ate breakfast
3 facial
4 read book &took mrt simultaneously
5 watch goong :D
6 ate dinner
7 watch goong :DD
8 did bible study, slept

7 things you have to do today:
1 watch goong!
2 do bible study(:
3 sleep
4 eat
5 watch goong!
6 talk on the phone?
7 watch fog street if possible.

7 people you always SMS: (checking inbox :D)
1 JANEL!
2 mrs fun(:
3 melody, during schooldays.
4 zhimin
5 jiaqi
haha, i guess that's it :D

7 websites you always visit:
1 my blog
2 janel's blog
3 sha's blog
4 kim's blog
5 joyce's blog
6 hotmail
7 gmail/yahoo

7 people to do this:
1 janel :DD
2 leer
3 jiaqi
4 tique
5 jovi
6 agnes
7 navina

2006-10-31T16:40:00.000-08:00

KIM JUNG HOON! (: <3

I bought the GOONG OST! hawhaw. &im loving it. (:

2006-10-30T02:05:00.000-08:00

finally finished watching goong.
im gonna watch it all over again, hi first episode, im gonna be a goong idiot once more.
hawhaw :D

it's late now, but it's weird I don't feel tired at all.
hoho. maybe im gonna buy the GOONG OST tmr. Should I?
Because maybe someone I know has the OST. whee.

We all know that God's love for us will never change. What matters is whether our love for Him will ever change.

2006-10-29T18:40:00.000-08:00

GOONG OBSESSION! (:
why is KIM JEONG HOON so cute? :D
i wanna buy his album. and the goong OST too! hohoho.
PICTURES FROM ECP!

made by kim. NICE(: ♥ kim looks pissed. HAWHAW.

nat's unglam moment.

me & sharan. edited by photoshop, it removes 99.99999% of your pimples :D

me & lxq.

oh the speech pastor vincent made yesterday was meaningful. &what he said really works :DD

2006-10-23T20:45:00.000-07:00

view the DEP video here! ((:

DEP is like the best-test. im really sad that they are replacing suneeta. i guess everything happens for a reason, and we'll just leave everything to the BIG GUY up there(: however, looking on the bright side, ms izrina offered me to promote DEP this coming wednesday. gotta start planning :D and on open house, we're gonna present our exam piece to the public. THANK GOD! ((:

Remember to watch the DEP video, and be prepared to cry your hearts out. bye(:

2006-10-21T21:15:00.000-07:00

went to work today. couldn't go riverlife because they wouldn't let me go until 6pm.
anw, I earned quite a sum today, but the glory still goes to God. (:
my goodness, today's working made me have an impression of how mean Singaporeans can actually be. everyday we see Singaporeans being kind, and everything good about them, but NO. if you come and try my job, you'll see how tough it is and how thick-skinned you have to be.
CLASSIC.
thank God fiona's mother was there to help us recruit people, whee.
oh and did I mention about "cheena-poks"?
haha hilarious man, we had to survey people who were actually chinese-speaking, and NO im not a CPL. (inside joke ok)
imagine if JANEL did this. but no lah, obviously she wont because she's so BUSY during the holidays.
24.10.2006, here I come, &I bet it'll be the day I get so many rejections.

2006-10-19T19:40:00.000-07:00

PIRATES! (:
see no evil. hear no evil. speak no evil. CLICHED!
lxq never fails to make me feel uh, less pretty. (:
yes im going back to the p6 days where autograph books were a fad.
nope, we're not opening our mouths to let flies fly in. hee :D

bye folks!

2006-10-15T15:25:00.000-07:00

jiaqi and tabi. cute! <3
Thank you for always being there for me, ILOVEYOU(: ♥
&they are so unforgettable, sorry jiaqi! (:

I WANT TO CHANGE TO CAMERA. this camera quality is starting to suck, and I dont know why.

anyway, yesterday RIVERLIFE was funfunfun. then came the serious part. God just zoomed in and revived my heart. whee. just started crying out to Him, I need to know Him more. I need to know His will for me. (: and thank you janel for bringing me to such an awesome church. ((:

hah. cornerstone is next saturday. should I go to cornerstone or riverlife? zhimin is telling me to give cornerstone a chance.

should I stay, or should I go.

2006-10-13T12:55:00.000-07:00

I love janel and sharan! ♥
ethnic!(:
she's forced me into this. she's the monitress. that's why i have to listen to her. (:
i love the cushion. zzz.
annabelle. oh-so-unglam(:
vicky!
hahahaha. I love them, no matter how BAD they try to imitate my "act-coolness".

2006-10-12T18:45:00.000-07:00

wondering how this..
can become this? :D

haha yay. it's my head set. (: and i need a new mp3 to go with it. still saving up. (:

this is JOYFUL. i want the orange one. (: this limegreen one is nice too. i want orange and white! (: ZEN V PLUS!

and i want a NEW camera. like..

SONY CYBERSHOT DSC-T50(: whee.

Black
An elegant match for your lifestyle.
Capturing the ebony hue of elite design, this matte-finished colour brings out the quality of the brushed lens cover finish and main front panel, appealing equally to both genders.

I was considering the red one. but nah, it looks like blood. scares me. ):

haha black is nice! hmm, i wonder how long i'll take to save up(:

2006-10-12T15:00:00.000-07:00

haha people try to guess who THIS is. (:
RED stands for danger. (:
the mysterious tunnel. i like. (:
my new hairstyle! hahah. i'll let it down for sha on tues((:
high-class shop at VIVOCITY.
close-up!

today wasted almost half the day at Ang Mo Kio. Uncle Johnny's shop. he helped my cut my hair. (: whee he's hilarious man, the jokes he make. lalala. i like my new hairstyle. make me feel so light. hahah. now my head is not so heavy. see my new hairstyle? done by uncle johnny. lalala. ((:

2006-10-11T17:10:00.000-07:00

"To be happy, you either change the world, or you change your thinking. To be realistic, you have to change your thinking to be happy. But me, I will change the world for you."
- extract from I Believe You by Low Kay Hwa

I love this phrase. haha but im not gonna say it to anyone lah. DUH(:
whee. &boredom is still killing. ):

But me, I will change the world for you.

2006-10-11T16:25:00.000-07:00

haha you know how boredom can kill after a long time.
it's killing me!
eeee. listening to Christian City Church now.
nice music, they have. CREDITS TO BEN CHONG, who so kindly lent me the cd after 3 weeks of bugging.
hahaha. (:
yay im going riverlife this sat, funfunfun. (:
&im still sick ):

2006-10-11T10:40:00.000-07:00

im terribly sick. ):
fever, cough, and everything you can think of. not gastric flu though.
better start getting closer to GOD. been drifting away from Him.
&im gonna go RIVERLIFE this sat. whee. (:

2006-10-10T20:45:00.000-07:00

im finally free after 5 days of agony! whee.
went vivo with janel, zy and kenny today to watch world trade centre. (to nat: sad meh? I found it scary.)
quite good, effects were nice.
but I was so sick, kept sniffing and coughing throughout the movie.
janel thought i was gonna cry.
vivocity is BIG. seriously, it's probably so spacious because most of the shops are still under construction. maybe i'll go back there again.
then after the movie, went toysrus. bought something.
then took a 1h trip home. feeling sick now. ):

2006-09-30T00:00:00.000-07:00

ILOVEYOUNAVINA! ((:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DRAMA-QUEEN!♥♥♥

2006-09-12T00:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEER! <3333
ILOVEYOU! ((:

2006-09-09T09:45:00.000-07:00

You scored as The Amazing Spider-Man. After being bitten by a radioactive spider, Peter Parker was transformed from a nerdy high school student into New York's greatest hero. Peter enjoys the thrill of being a super hero, but he struggles with the burdens of leading a double life. He hopes someday to win the heart of his true love Mary Jane, the woman he's loved since before he even liked girls. Right now, he just wants to make it through college and pay his bills.

Which Action Hero Would You Be? v. 2.0
created with QuizFarm.com

Doesnt Spiderman rock? HAHA. &that brings to mind one childhood picture.

I think this was at Disneyland. Although I have abosoultely no memories of this, I'm sure I had a great time there. And I didn't even know this picture was taken! HAHA. I'm gonna go back there sometime. Anyone wants to go? ((:

OH AND..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHIMIN!!♥♥

2006-09-08T14:20:00.000-07:00

bow down to RACHEL THE GREAT. HAWHAW. (:
please do not think otherwise. we were SHARING the drink. haha.

aren't koala bears the best things God has ever invented? (:
no maybe it's the POOH bear. <3

&can you guess which is me? (:

another DEP family tree update:

AGNES is now officially KIDDO JONK, a name which my son (chris) and I coined. Isn't that just great? And thank you KIDDO JONK for calling us UNCLES. (:

whee. im in the I want drama lessons mood now. If i ever quit drama next year, i think i'll just disintegrate and die, which i may, by like 50%? boo. mum is never gonna let my join drama again! which is like crap, but im gonna proove to her i can do it thru my EOYs. haha, and that reminds me of how i wasted the whole sept holiday on MSN with my DEP mates! i would say that it was a fun and fulfilling way to relax when you're all getting stressed up, and laughing by the computer can make you go nuts. (hey that rhymes!)

but anw, this post is suppossed to be dedicated to all the DEP people. oh man i think DEP is like the best thing that happened in this whole year! from the hundreds during lessons to the Drama Nite rehearsals, I enjoyed every minute and second of it cause of YOU guys! ((: whee. (im trying not to make it sound so cliched and cheesy, hohoho.) but you guys seriously rock, and i wanna thank you guys for being a part of my life. Love, Rachel Yong. ♥♥♥

HOHOHO! (:

2006-09-07T23:00:00.000-07:00

&i didn't know i could travel to the future, haha. =D

today was fine. just sitting at the table doing maps and scales is quite fun, especially with the calculator. 8.50pm was the main highlight of the day. I was actually so damn scared that Jonathan will get out. During the commercial break I was scolding Jasmine for being so die-hard! She is, isn't she? Even Agnes agrees. HAWHAW. Get out, leave right now.

Anyway, I'm going to have a new cousin soon! Hope he's a boy, cause Alexia want a baby brother, i guess. ((:

2006-09-04T23:05:00.000-07:00

Drama practicals are over! FINALLY! I wanted to treat my monologue as my last time that I'll be performing again, so that I can give it my all. And it is, because I may be forced to quit Drama under unforseen circumstances. ): but anw i think everyone gave it their best, and even pron was memorising her lines at banquet. anw, when everyone was performing, i was being my usual self, telling lame jokes and all. afiyah managed to get a few of them, after she had to go thru the ordeal I made for everyone last tuesday, telling one whole hour of lame jokes. hurhur.

anw, today atiqah was calling me Dad the whole day, and she gave me so many hugs during the monologue thing. haha it's actually kind of a feat for someone who hates hugs. at about 3.45 pm when the whole monologue thing was over, everyone was screaming at the snail which afiyah dint realise was behind her. IT'S JUST A SNAIL. but anyway, im kinda disppointed that no one took a picture of my discovery channel moment. haha. muzz then invited everyone to her hse. i wanted to go, but then my mother will definitely not allow. so i'll wait till wednesday comes, &im gonna ask her bout thurs' slpover at kim's hse. to be frank, im not really keen about it, but i wouldnt mind having a slpover. (:

&please tell me what you are thinking. <3

2006-09-02T09:55:00.000-07:00

richard linton is my name, and I have a faithful wife (or perhaps not so faithful due to the fact that she was my gay partner's ex) and her name is navina linton. I have one son, and his name is christopher linton, but everyone calls him chris for short. yan, my daughter-in-law, came into my family when we found her outside our gates crying like a spoilt brat because her leg got bitten by some karang guni man.

anw, i shall elaborate more on the gay partner part. you see, during this period of terrorism, i was actually one of the suspects. i was not guilty of terrorising, but being corrupted, the military officers actually shot whoever they thought were guilty. and so i did not want to be shot, and there was this rumour going on that the military officers DO NOT shoot people who are gay. so i acted gay with ramanpreet, but eversince we've been released, we have been in contact and became gay partners. so one day when i invited raman to come over to my house for tea, he saw navina, and they recognised each other at once. i was shocked to find out that they were actually ex-boyfriend and girlfriend. but i have forgiven them, for they were young and immature then when they had the relationship.

ok now for the serious stuff. I have found chris' twin brother, whose name is tique. yes navina had twins. but we kept it from everyone because we knew that they would jeer at us for having twins and yet we could not afford to have twins. so navina, rashly and quietly dumped tique in the dumpster. the reasons arent clear, but yesterday i've found tique, and acknowledged him as my son since yesterday. but i just want to thank that karang guni man for taking tique in, although he bit on yan's leg, where the reasons are yet to be known. (:

and now, i've found out that yan is having an affair with alfie, who is the karang guni man's fiancee's lover. now chris and yan are having a cold war, but navina and i have no plans to patch them up. you see, just let youths handle their own affairs of the heart. our responsibility is just to look for agnes and muzz, whom alfie dumped into a toilet bowl full of shit when the 2 kids were just babies. im still angry with alfie for that though.

oh and one more thing. i have just adopted nat as my daughter. met her at the orpahnage (you see, her mother died when she gave birth to her and her father died of a heart attack). and so she's officially natasha linton, nat for short. (: nat is such an eye-candy! ((:

i've scraped off the mould, atiqah! updated finally man. hurhur.

2006-08-12T20:15:00.000-07:00

HEY RACHEL...
LOOK, I'M REALLY SORRY IF I'D OFFENDED YOU ON FRIDAY. I MEAN WHAT I SAY.
ONE ADVICE THOUGH. IN REALITY, I GUESS MANY MORE PEROPLE WOULD BE TEASING YOU & STUFF LIKE THAT. BY BLOWING UP, YOU'RE LIKE HELPING THEM ACHIEVE WHAT THEY WANT - TO GET YOU ANNOYED. SO JUST TAKE THINGS WITH A PINCH OF SALT YEAH? MAYBE THE 'ANNOYERS' MAY STOP ANNOYING YOU IF THEY FIND YOU UN-ANNOYABLE. BUT I GUESS I WENT OVERBOARD SINCE THIS AIN'T THE FIRST TIME =\ SO YEAH... SORRY. CHEER UP :D

LOVE NAT

when i read the letter, i was like "AWW" and amused at the same time.

laughing like some mad cow in cold storage when she passed me the letter.

maybe it was beacause her reaction and kim's reaction was so different when i told them how upset i was about the pranking. haha.

this was the super vulgar sms i sent to nat yesterday to tell her how pissed i was.

"Omg i never believed i had to go thru all this shit with you because of some stupid prank shit. when will you and janel ever learn not to play fucking tricks like this. Yes its vey easy for you guys to say "hahahaha" and just walk off but have you ever thought of the person who is being pranked? Its smth like this. I come towrds janel or whoever and start pointing at you. oh then later you find out its cuz of some fucking post it with "i hate dance"on it. like how would you feel lah. im sorry for being very emo but i think this is how you would react also."

today, i asked nat how she felt about the sms.

me: Nat so how did you feel about that mean sms?

nat: i almost wanted to delete it lah, but in the end also didnt.

hah that was in macs when we were having our drama discussion. i was like half-ignoring her and answering her questions haphazardly. and at times i would be sarcastic to her and say horrid things like "hah yan i'd rather sit with you." or "hmph i dun wanna share food with nat."then she'll go, "AY, RACHEL!!"

navina, now you know how much you missed!

ANYWAY, i went for the parkway roadshow today.

according to yan it was not as crowded as the last parkway roadshow.

poor nat was being squashed at the barricades. hah.

but i was kinda surprised when she screamed for the idols.

Joakim's father and sister was there too. his father was calling the producer to let him in the barricades.

in the midst of the moise, i could hear his sister saying, "Aiya, let us in lah. You are Joakim's father leh."

oh and i saw that underdog sticker she had on the spore idol magazine, and it was on jon's page.

she was like, "better take out all the stickers, later the other idols see already hor, then very malu leh."

Gosh i felt like giving her a tight slap. haha.

long post today. ooh i think i wont update in a long time. sad, huh?

2006-08-04T19:55:00.000-07:00

im so bored, so i thought i might as well update.
woohoo. im finally officially liberated from all tests and exams.
well, until 25th of august comes. kill me!
i have like drama exams then. boohoo.
and the best part is, im not ready yet! NOT READY!

2006-07-29T14:15:00.000-07:00

HIGHLIGHT OF THE WEEK!
DRAMA NITE 06
I'M SO GONNA MISS IT BECAUSE WE BONDED A LOT!

now im really reconsidering if i should drop drama.
God, can you please tell me if your answer is drama nite?

anw, i found out that lizzie (the LAME LAMB) is ben teh's cousin.
absolute coolness.

Heathcliff, it's me, oh Cathy come home.

2006-07-21T23:10:00.000-07:00

JONATHAN LEONG! :D I KNOW I LOVE HIM! <33

5 CAs next week. hope i can survive this weekend mugging for geog. (:
anyway, if you wanna catch me in wuthering heights wearing this really doopy costume, come down to support us (DEP) from the 25th to the 28th of July! (: HAHA. I'm high now. =D

2006-07-09T23:20:00.000-07:00

its been one week since i touched blogger.
anw, now with projects and stuff, i dont think anyone will read my blog.
dont see the point of updating.

anyway, after reading some stuff on the rape of nanking, i feel so unjustified for the victims, especially the woman. how can the Japanese actually finish them off after raping them? Believe it or not, even the officials partcipated in these activities.

"Between December 1937 and March 1938 at least 369,366 Chinese civilians and prisoners of war were slaughtered by the invading troops. An estimated 80,000 women and girls were raped; many of them were then mutilated or murdered.

Thousands of victims were beheaded, burned, bayoneted, buried alive, or disemboweled.
To this day the Japanese government has refused to apologize for these and other World War II atrocities, and a significant sector of Japanese society denies that they took place at all."

the fact that the Japanese government refused to apologise for the atrocities really pissed me off. i mean, how can they do so much harm to this innocent group of people and then walk away pretending that this is none of their business, even to the extend of denial? like c'mon la, there are tons of records to show that you were the ones who commited all these crimes, so stop denying before the whole world looks down on you.

and the worse thing is that, they pass the totally wrong information to the next generation. i remember my teacher telling me that there was this tour guide from Singapore bringing a group of Japanese to the national museum. Guess what? they had no idea that their forefathers brought trauma and harm to OUR forefathers. In fact, they learnt that the Japanese came over to set the Asian countries free from liberation. I think they were shocked that they have been actually believing in a lie all these while.

now i want to conclude that if you have any Japanese friends, dont shun them cause it's not their fault. it's their forefathers' fault. and if they dont know the truth, please share it with them. =D

im feeling so much better now. (:

2006-07-03T20:30:00.000-07:00

left the last post for the courtesy of woo yan yan. (:
glad you are enjoying drama, girl.
anyway, please come and support your fellow friends from DEP by watching our very own play, just before the drama club play.
and the best is, IT'S COMPLETELY FREE OF CHARGE! =D

we'll be putting up different plays on the four days of performance. details are as shown.
Venue: TKGS foyer
Dates: 25th, 26th, 27th, 28th of July
Time: About 30 mins to 1 hour before Drama club performance.

We need your presence and support! thou thanks thee. (:

2006-07-02T23:50:00.000-07:00

i think drama is a disaster for me. and to think i was recommended to do this subject.
i thought i had the passion to go on pursuing this subject when i was 13yrs and 4 mths old.
i thought i had the same passion for drama like i had for maths and science.
but no, time has proved me wrong.
everything im doing is wasted.
so i won't stay on next year to waste my time again.
or should i not? i know this sounds cliched but i really really wanna know what path God has chosen for me.
anyway, enough of all the dumb stuff.
i think i should just stick to being the maths and science smartass. class freaky genius girl. or whatever.
enough of drama-mama.

who will cheer me up?

2006-07-01T14:25:00.000-07:00

you take the FPS booklets and read through them,
for all we know you plagiarised the information in there.
this is not the first time you are doing that,
you ought to learn what's integrity because that's what you lack.

when i caught you red-handed you denied that fact,
your friend saw you and she was filled with regret.
nevertheless she helped you cheat,
and im telling you that it's no feat.

ANNABELLE TEE HUI LIN, that is the name,
she has to know what is shame.
now you must be thinking my poem is lame,
but im telling you that this is my game.

don't blame me for this poem. im not really good at poetry. :D
another way to release my anger. (:

2006-06-23T16:55:00.000-07:00

Unwritten
I am unwritten,
Can't read my mind
I'm undefined
I'm just beginning
The pen's in my hand
Ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words
That you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition
Sometimes my tries
Are outside the lines
We've been conditioned
To not make mistakes
But I can't live that way

2006-06-22T10:10:00.000-07:00

long time since i've updated. (:
yay. today are the lady results!! :D
i want meryl and mathilda to get in!
haha.

2006-06-16T01:45:00.000-07:00

baby amos! (((:

i never knew infrared on the computer could be so fun until now. all those themes you can send. ((:

2006-06-15T01:05:00.000-07:00

just came back from church camp. TIRED.
but it was lots of fun with hannah, chris and gen. <3
and the PS2! (((:

this world is empty, pale and poor,
compared to knowing you my Lord.

2006-06-10T13:25:00.000-07:00

JAM-X! <3
im just very happy that I could feel God's presence there.
a pity my camera batteries ran out of juice, and i didnt have time to go buy, so couldnt take nice pictures of the JOY DANCERS! sammie was one of them. danced to "king of majesty remix". haha.
the two housebands made me really high too. samuel yong was in one of the housebands as backup singer.
then next came crimson.
and guess what. they only came up with the band name one hour the thing started. so funny!
AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!
THIS IS HOW WE OVERCOME.

2006-06-09T18:45:00.000-07:00

SHE'S THE MAN!
everybody go watch that! it's so nice! haha.
yesterday we(me, yan) made a fool of ourselves laughing so loudly on the chair.
haha. but the ending was the happily-ever-after kind of endings, so it was good. ((:

today, me nat sharan janel wasted time playing with infrared. and blingy blob.
see rachel the great taught janel and sharan how to use infrared. (:
jam-x later. (:

2006-06-07T14:25:00.000-07:00

Look straight ahead, what do you see?
-the computer?

What company is it made by?
-hp.

Look to your left, what do you see?
-charmaine.

How often do you use it?
-I'm not a manipulator. haha.

Reach up, do you touch anything?
-yes.

What is it?
-oxygen, carbon dioxide, nitrogen, water vapour, rare gases. :D

Look to the right, what do you see?
-a door with the words "no littering please".

Do you use it often?
-nope, it's always open. ((:

Open a CD case, read a sentence.
-franck. ==

Spin around 3 times, do you get dizzy?
-too embarassing. but i dont think i'll get dizzy.

Look behind your computer, is there anything there?
-wires, a few other computers.

Look out a window, how many houses do you see?
-too many. and plus one school - tkss.

What type of chair are you sitting on? (eg. wooden, swivel)
-plastic. you know those kinds in school.

Get your CD player, turn it on, what is the first song you hear?
-im not listening to anything and i dont plan to.

Do you have any games downloaded on your computer?
-yes.

If you do, what are they?
-icytower.

Can you roll your tongue?
-yes.

Do you have an mp3 player?
-yup.

Jump up from the floor, do you touch the ceiling?
-nope. the ceiling is sooooooo high.

Open a book, turn to page 13, type an odd sentence you read on that page.
-not planning to go all the way just to get a dumb book. :D

2006-06-07T01:25:00.000-07:00

i did this 30 question survey!
when i tried to post it, it got deleted! wth.
its rather late now, i better go sleep! ((:
maybe if im in a good mood you'll see the survey up tomorrow, or rather, later. :D